I wonder!

Haven't really got the time to sit and ponder.
What is this phase of life? I wonder!

The season is changing.
Am I changing? I wonder!

My mood is upbeat, my heart is at peace.
Is it the calm before the storm? I wonder!

Its been a while since my eyes were wet with salty water.
Why am I missing it already? I wonder!

I live in my self created meaningless world of dreams.
It dosen't take money to dream, does it? I wonder!

I have become a stronger person.
Why do I still have fears deep within? I wonder!

I'm not as emotional as I used to be
Why am I feigning a smile? I wonder!

I am loving this phase of life.
How long will it last? I wonder!