Two ends

I am painstakingly Indian, but I want to see the world.
I want to be independent, yet I am dependent for everything on people I love.

I want to love and be loved, but I dont trust anyone enough.
I want to achieve perfection, but I dont try hard enough.

I dont want to expect anything from anyone, yet I set high standards.
I love, but I dont know how to show it through actions or words.

Some say I have a sweet smile, I know I have salty tears.
I want to be fearless, yet I have deep and silent fears.

I dream, yet I dont believe dreams can come true.
I say I dont believe in destiny, yet I am sure I do.

I want to live a planned life, yet I live in utter chaos.
I want to be a rebel, yet I accept what life has to offer.

I want to have people around me, but solitude loves me.
Nothing's wrong with my life, yet i feel that there are things that could have been better!

I want to live in oblivion, mystery intrigues me.
I think Life is a mystery I dont want to unravel, yet my curiosity kills me.

I live at two ends, trying desperately to make them meet.

November Rain

The cold november rain.
Some pleasures and no pain.
The wind blows soft
The earth's moist
It smells like heaven
There's a pleasant noise.
The "rum raisin" does wonders
Life's on a high.
The rollercoaster's on the top
I wish it dosen't leave the sky.
Are good times here to stay?
Come on Sweta, don't go your old way.

Strangers

You know me so well now,
There's nothing I can hide.
I claim to know u so well as well,
But there's so much about you that I can't decide.
When I talk to a stranger though,
There is a strange comfort I know.
I can say whatever I want.
Without the fear of being misunderstood,
I can do whatever I want.
No expectations,
No fear of losing,
No insecurity,
A strange comfort away from reality.
Can we also,
Not know each other as well as we do.
Lets get back to where we started,
Lets become strangers too...!

A New Leaf

The autumn has set in,
Can i see new leaves..?
Haven't noticed yet.
But I have got a new life.

A new morning, a new night,
Not a whole new world,
But a new point of view,
A new sun, a new light.

"Is this ephemeral?", I ask.
It is'nt , no questions asked.
The confusion seems to have vanished,
The defeatist vanquished.

Seasons change,
but not very fast.
I wish my new season,
also does not fade fast.

Chaos

There's a storm in my life,
Brings Chaos..
Dirty clothes piling up,
Papers all over my desk.
Where did I keep my specs,
And why am I so lost?
Skipping breakfast,
somehow make it for lunch.
Headaches everyday,
I can feel the caffeine in my blood.
I see the sunrise
and realise its time to sleep,
Sleep deprived I am,
I just went to sleep,
Why dosen't the alarm let me sleep?
Wake up, its time for class, it says.
Realising just a few minutes left,
I run to class.
Concentration levels are abysmal,
Why did I come to class?
The professor dosen't seem to make sense,
My backpages get filled again.
Get irritated at the smallest of things
Misunderstand people,
End up getting misunderstood.
Confusion reigns supreme.
Life is in chaos..!
Total Chaos!!!

The breeze

A gentle breeze kissed me
and woke me up today
It said-"Wake up.! Today is a wonderful day."
I asked - "But what's so special about this day?"
It laughed and said - " Why are you so skeptical everyday?
Everyday is a beautiful day.
The birds sing
The leaves sway
The butterflies murmur
and the flowers play.
There's so much in the day to do and say.
Wake up!
Begin the day on a happy note!
Work, Talk, Laugh and Smile!
Touch someone and pass the smile!
Forget yesterday
Live this day
Tomorrow will be another beautiful day.!"
The breeze made me smile,
and Went away.
I hope it comes back
to wake me up everyday!

Midnight wish

I wish the world was filled with beauty and simplicity
I wish there was no selfishness nor no hypocrisy
I wish there was less uncertainty and complexity
Oh! How i wish there was enough love to keep people happy.
Its almost midnight now,
and as I make these wishes to the Almighty,
Selfish I become too,
and make a few wishes for myself too.
I wish I could think more clearly
I wish I could express myself better
I wish everything was right
And I wish the clouds of confusion would give way to light.
Though I think I'm quite alright,
How i wish i was a different person,
Is just one of the thoughts that come to my mind tonight.!

Vacuum

I walk the walk of life,
I meet different people
They come,
they walk with me,
my road is empty no more.
They fill up the emptiness with smiles and tears.
I think, the vacuum is gone forever.
They laugh with me,
smile with me,
cry with me,
wipe my tears.
Suddenly, the road divides,
they say goodbye
and walk the other path.
I smile and wish them good luck
Only to find myself alone again.
I start on the same path once again,
Hoping to find someone else
to fill the perpetual vacuum.

Illusion

Life is an illusion
It is utter confusion
Why do some people come into ur life,
to make you feel nice?
And why do the same people,
hurt you and make you cry.?
why do you feel that you dont want to let go?
You will have to say goodbye u know.
Why is it that the harder you try, the tougher it gets?
Why dont such thoughts come to rest?
My agile mind gallops in the fields of confusion.
Life seems nothing but an illusion.

I dont know

Why am I doing an MBA?,
I dont know.
Do I want to make lot of money?,
I dont know.
Am i hear for knowledge?,
I dont know.
Are grades important?
I dont know.
Do i really care about what job i will end up with?,
I dont know.
Will I not ultimately adapt to whatever work i get?,
I dont know.
Will there be a time I will get bored of life?
I dont know.
Will there be a time I will just quit it all?
I dont know.
Why are you so confused?
I dont know.

Strategy

In the business school of heaven,
God attended lectures on strategy.
Innovation was on his mind,
When he made people crazy.
Creativity was the lesson
when he gave them emotions
His core competence ,well i know not
But must have been their interactions
Meeting new people,
laughter and tears,
The loving and the hurting,
The silence and the fears.
The technological breakthrough
Well that was the human mind
Nothing more complex,
Have I been able to find.

A Walk in the Rain

A walk in the rain,
some pleasures and some pain
When the sky is overcast,
and the clouds can take no more
Its like when the heart is heavy,
and the eyes can keep no more.
But now my heart is light
And my eyes dry
I only wonder,
Why do the heavens cry?

Odyssey of Discovery

That book you see
Is the book of life that God wrote
A new page is written on it
as days come and go.
You need to close a chapter,
Before a new one that you start
As you approach the end,
it will be time to depart.
Then if you flip the pages,
you will see,
what an odyssey of discovery,
life was meant to be.
A few colorful pages
A few black ones
Some bitter memories,
and some sweet ones.
Some days dark,
and some bright.
Dont be sorry,
Be it for wrong or for right.
Let the smiles shine,
let the tears flow
coz one day,
it will be no more.

Tears

The salty water
That flows from my eyes
They are my tears
They are always there for me
When i cannot hold
The intensity of my emotions any more,
They flow down my cheeks
and make me feel light
my eyes feel cleaner
my face gets washed
my heart feels lighter
and I feel better.
Thank you for always being there for me.

Time

As each moment passes away
There is so much i have to say
But when i cant say
I confine myself within
There are so many people around,
I walk past them
I feel i am the only one
and when i am on my own
i think, i breathe and i feel like letting go of this moment
but the moment will be gone before i let it go
And there is one thing i know
that this moment is the only one i am sure i have
And this is the moment
That i dont want to let go.

Rain

The professor teaches in class
It rains outside on grass
The grass looks greener
the steps are cleaner
You can hear the birds chirping
The mobile in class ringing
The professor speaks on
Why dosen't the clock move on?
My friends listen
and I pretend to listen
Banks, letter of credit
Liabilities and Assets,
are just some of the words
that enter my head.
Be it the debit
Or the credit side
I would do anything
For a walk in the rain outside.

MBA ??

Mission, they say,
is the reason for existence
My mission - what is it?
An interesting question
Vision, they say,
is where you want to be
My vision,
well thats what i can't see.
Words like these sound good in class
When you apply them to life
Its quite a task.
Brand consolidation
Brand transition
goes above my head.
Well, how does it matter
some wise man said.
First channel strategy
Then brand strategy
Philosophy in strategy
and history in IB
From 8:30 to 5,
when will i get respite!!?

The endless conversation

The heart and the Mind
Can never reconcile
One says the other is Imbecile...
When the heart says it is,
The mind says it isnt...
The mind gives the reasons,
The heart refuses to listen..
The heart says there isn't a reason for everything
The mind says there is .
When the heart says yes,
The mind says no.
Both refuse to listen andthe arguement goes on......
The heart has a friend - the eyes...
and when the heart can explain no more
It asks the eyes to help
And the eyes make the heart's emotions flow down as tears...
The mind then says - This is not the solution, you are being too weak.
And then the heart says - but thats the way it is..
the imbroglio goes on....
the conversation continues...

Confusion

I sit in my room tonite
and wonder where I am
Am I too small
Or Is the world too big?
Something says -
There is place for all.
and then I ponderHave I asked for more
Or is this all I deserve?
I am told - You may not have got what you want, but you've got what you need.
and then when I say
Should I be content
Or should I be not?
I hear - The quest ends if you choose the former.
I listen to all the voices around me
I wonder if they always mean what they say
A candid thought says - Yes they do
another says - Do they do?
I wonder if people like me for what I am
the child within me says - Of course they do
and then something says
What's so special about you?
At times I feel the world is simple and beautiful,
and then i think - is it?
and then something says - Its how you look at it.
Its time to sleep now
and as i go off to sleep,
i wonder " Is it still the night or is it morning now?"